You can tell how tired I am by the amount of sense this makes :)

I will probably be writing a lot about "this time last year" because although I haven't changed very much as a person, I don't think last year's Dewey would recognize the perspective of this year's Dewey. Get it?

Last year, while my focus on God was slowly being sharpened, I was mainly focused on my boyfriend and my education.
Wonderful Things!
I was stressed at school(I HATED IT SO MUCH!), but persevering. My endurance, I would accredit to God, Caitlin & Manda--my Bible Study Babes, and Jonathan, the Wonderful Thing of a boyfriend. [He is the one who pointed out to me that I was sleeping an average of 4 hours/night. He challenged me to get 8. He literally bet me that I would feel better. He won the bet. I owed him a kiss.]

I was happy in my life but not fully satisfied. Life last November was a meal with good company, (happy) but it was never more than bread and butter (not satisfied.)

The bread and butter life is so safe! Think about when you're out to eat. The bread and butter is usually free, so you haven't invested anything yet, you can still bail on dinner or just sit and hope it doesn't suck, but you know it will, so you just mow down on bread.

To continue with my super fun metaphor, I was filling up on bread, and didn't even bother to order anything real. Food costs money, man!

I was living a safe life, even a promising life. If I hadn't changed anything, I would have one more semester left of school, great grades, job prospects, and quite probably a ring on my finger. Wonderful Things!


Sometimes I wondered what I would be like if I had truer faith in God. Or more faith in God than I had in myself.

What would it be like to stand in his full light, instead of hide from him in my own shadow.

Have you ever prayed for a bigger shadow so that you could hide more easily? (or was that just me?)

Romans 8: 7-9, 31

For the mind that is set on the flesh

is hostile to God,

for it does not submit to God’s law;

indeed, it cannot.

Those who are in the flesh cannot please God.

You, however,

are not in the flesh but in the Spirit,

if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you.

31What then shall we say to these things?

If God is for us, who can be against us?

Is anyone out there getting a little restless...?